College done, Work, full speed ahead.

Graduated from College, and am making cakes on my own for other people. I do have a cake blog now, and a cake facebook page. (blog spot) charlenescakes.blogspot.com (Facebook Site) www.facebook.com/charlenes.cakes. So look me up lets see what I can do for you.

Update........Not to much this time.

School
Well tomorrow is the first day i wear my uniform to school,
for those of you who don't know i am going into
baking and pastry arts.
So we will see how school in the kitchen goes.
fingers crossed, it goes well.

Family
Well life at home got a little better
my mom understands me
made things better.
Little siblings still as bratty as ever.
but they had a fun Easter, and had fun
seeing there older brother.

We are also expecting. Kittens.
Those cute little things my sisters will
try and keep.
but will not get to because we have 5 Cats already.
I don't thing we need more.

Social Life
WOOT. I still have one.
from time to time.
Went to an awesome concert.
got to see my bestie Erin.
and a few other friends that i don't get to see as much.
Still keeping contact with my friends that live
afar. i think they need to come closer.

Well that all for now.
so Talk to you all Soon.
Thank you, for reading,

Love ,
Charlene

Life Today

STARTED SCHOOL!! YAY!
So first 6 weeks is professional Development
and lets just say it is un-needed, and un-wanted
It's a very entertaining class, meeting some new nice people
but can't wait for the next part, when do we get in the kitchen
come on already, but no we have to learn to deal and interact with other
people first. AH! but anyway, 8 other people in the class all nice, 1 who i
am becoming good friends with, we talk all day. So that is school right now.

Next is Home
It sucks sometimes.
Like when i clean the kitchen and living room,
and the kids come home and mess it up,
and then dad comes home, and here comes the yelling,
because I did "nothing". DANG little kids.
sometimes i would like to tie them up.
but i don't, don't worry folks.
but always nice having little secrets with each parent,
or having them with little siblings.
sometimes home can be nice.



Social Life
is online life at this time,
planing things with people not so easy,
when you have weekend classes from 8:30 to 4:30
and work 4 to 5 days a week.
but my friends are wonderful

Erin, the best friend of 8 years still as awesome as always,
closest friend I have right now in heart and distance.
We are an interesting pair. Goofy but serious,
when need be, talk about? to much to list.
What we know about each other?
None you business.
LOVE HER TO DEATH.


Ryan, friend of a little over 2 years who doesn't
know how high i hold him up,in the friendship area,
but i think he's getting the picture sometimes.
Love getting to see him when he comes to visit.
Amazing guy. <3's all around for this one.

Dustin, Friend of 1 year, just moved away,
about 6 hours away. Interesting getting used to?
I say yes. ha. We have just about the most interesting
friendship in the world. We are mean to each other, sarcastic?
well just a little, haha, but we love each other, I know he would
be there for me if i was hurting or just needed someone to talk to.
PSH has been already. Don't plan on loseing him anytime soon.
Kaylyn, friends for 3 years, she just moved away also,
yes same place as Dustin. Need to do some catching up
with this one. But giggly, happy friend who shows when
somethings wrong, at least around the girly friends she does.
LOVE HER BUNCHES!
I would be no where with out them,
Never want them out of any part of my life,
LOVE YOU ALL!

Alright people that's it for now,
updates later.

Goodbye. :)

Hard Getting Over You

Don't smother each other. No one can grow in the shade. ~Leo Buscaglia

To much love, to much hurt, and now for the heartache.
And so it makes getting over you a hard thing to do,
I cry at night thinking of you, When i think I'm finally moving on,
I take two steps back, why must this be so hard and hurt so much,
Why does the brain remember things at the worst time?
Why must the brain have triggers, it see's something and
goes to you. But taking things one at a time, and finally getting
through each day. I thank you, for the time we were together,
and the days, and times we had, and now they may be over,
we have to memories, and they sometimes may hurt,
but we have to accept the fact we were a part of each others
life's, but aren't anymore. And the little things are what,
Makes it hard getting over you.

Touched by An Angel

Touched by An Angel

by Maya Angelou
We, unaccustomed to courageexiles from delightlive

coiled in shells of lonelinessuntil love leaves its high holy templeand

comes into our sightto liberate us into life.

Love arrivesand in its train come ecstasiesold memories of pleasureancient histories of pain.

Yet if we are bold,love strikes away the chains of fearfrom our souls.

We are weaned from our timidityIn the flush of love's lightwe dare be brave

And suddenly we seethat love costs all we areand will ever be.

Yet it is only lovewhich sets us free.

I'm Nobody! Who are you?

I'm Nobody! Who are you?
I'm Nobody! Who are you?

Are you -- Nobody -- Too?

Then there's a pair of us!

Don't tell! they'd advertise -- you know!

How dreary -- to be -- Somebody!

How public -- like a Frog --To tell one's name --

the livelong June --

To an admiring Bog!

By, Emily Dickinson

One Life To Love

He never thought he cared so much about the minuet hand,

until he started praying for a second chance,

If he could only do it all again

he triad the long nights that he spent behind his desk,

for all he missed,

he tells his wife i wish that this moment in this room,

was not me dieing but just spending a little time with you........

You only get just one time around

you only get one shot at this,

one chance to fine out,

the one thing that you don't want to miss,

one day when it's all said and done,

i hope you see that it was enough,

this one ride, one try, one life to love.....................................

She never thought she cared so much about those little hands,

that held on tight the day she left,

till she was scared to death,

sitting all alone on a hotel bed, at the end of the road,

the sun has set on her big plans, to feel young again,

she picks up the phone, dials a number, hears that little voice,

that's haunted ever single mile, since she made that choice...

you only get just one time around

you get on shot at this,

one chance to fine out the one thing that you don't want to miss,

one day when it's all said and done,

i hope see that it was enough,

this one ride, one try, ONE LIIIFE TO LOOOVE..

you only get just one time around,

only get one shot at this, one chance, to fine out,

the one thing that you don't what to miss,

one day when it's all said and done i hope you see it was enough

this one ride one try this one life to love.... one ride one try on life to love.... to love..

BY,

33MILES

L’amour et de Coeur-Ache ~ Liebe und Herz-Ache

Love and Heart-Ache
Love, {definition} A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair, an expression of one's affection.
Heart-Ache {definition} Emotional Anguish, Sorrow.
Reading these definitions scars me, because love is something i know and have been through, everyone has loved and/or is loving another. We have all also experienced heart-ache, it not an easy emotion to go through. I'm sure everyone has been through both. You love someone so deeply and then comes the heart-ache of losing them either because they left you of maybe because it was their time to leave earth. Loving someone is the easy part it's the possible outcome that is scary and possibly hurtful. That brings me to -
Repeat {definition} To do something again, for something to happen again.
We would like it if the emotion of love was to repeat itself, but after it happens once because of the heart-ache we went through after the love. Why would we be willing to let it happen again.
Deja Vu {definition} An impression of having seen or experienced something before.
This would be somewhat nice for everyday usage, to see something before it really happens would be nice. To know if we might go through love and heart-ache again or if maybe just the part of a long last forever love. These things These things would be nice to know ahead of time.
God {definition} A being conceived as the perfect, omnipotent, omniscient originator and the ruler of the universe A magnificent creator and obsession to believe in. One who knows all things.
By fallowing him we should be able to avoid as much heart-ache as possible but be able to know a love not know to man, because it is beyond us to know, but with him we shall have it eternally.

BY,
Charlene M. Stokes

A Thought

Many things go through a young persons mind. The thoughts could be good or they could be bad. they could be thoughts of other people or there family or of themselves. but when a young person lives in the world today a somthing gose wrong it is mostly the bad thoughts that go though their mind and when they have these emotions , fears, and put downs by peopleand thereselves. the thought that i am talking aobout is suicide. How many teens and young people have this thought cross there mind it's probably more then you think or can even imagian and im sure you can imagian alot. But really how many times has this thougth crossed your mind? this thought crossed me one time i was going through a hard time and feeling as though nobody loved me or wanted me around. As you can probably tell i didn't go through with that thought, Instead i wrote a poem expressing how i felt and other people read this and said "it sounds depressing", i thought (well good then it's expressing how i really feel). This way of dealing with it may not be for every body, but if you know someone you can talk to then go to them or go to the one that is always there for you. If you have the tough of suicide right now don't go through with it give your self time to figure out somebody out there that loves you not only God, he dose love you and he always will no matter what. But on this earth there is someone that cares for you deeply and loves you and probably many people out there that love you and care about you and what happens to you. You might not know these people or they might be right in front of you and have told you. Go through your thoughts in your head figure out who has said the words "I Love You". Then if you do that and nobody comes to mind just wait someone will come along and tell you your life to God is worth the world You to God are worth the world every mountain every sea all the land the this earth holds God cares for you that much and you will find someone on earth that loves you.
By,
Charlene M. Stokes

To: My Future Mr. Right

When I think of him my mind wonders and nothing can disturb my thought, when I talk to him my heart skips a beat, when I see his face butterflies swell up in my stomach. What is it? Is it lust, is it infatuation, and is it love? What is it?
I want to know can anybody tell me. He makes me laugh. What’s wrong with me, I have Goosebumps creeping up my arms, I can’t get him off my mind, my heart is sinking, my mind is wondering, my stomach is tangled up and yet I don’t know what to think.
We talk for hours about nothing at all but yet we can’t stop talking to each other. When dose this feeling stop?
Dose it ever? I close my eyes and all I see is him, I try to sleep at night but the thought of him keeps me awake.

By,

Charlene M. Stokes

Who Knows Me

Who Knows Me?
Who knows me? Nobody they may think they know the real me but they don't. What can i tell you that you don't know? I could probably tell you allot you don't know about me. Lets start here, I hate life. I mean besides hanging out with friends and very rearly haveing a good time at home. ok or talking to someone on the internet. Life just suck's So right now at this moment i am thinking why live? And the answer is because i am here for a reason. I may not know that reason just yet but i shall find out.. Because god did put me here for somthing even though i may not know it know i will go on living even when life can can make you work so hard you start harting it... but the reason i do not know and will fine out andi shall go on living even when i feel worthless...
By,
Charlene M. Stokes

Message Out of a Book

A minister I had heard of in Romania had been horribly beaten and was thrown back into the cell with the other prisoners. He was half dead with blood streaming down his face and body. As some of the prisoners washed him others cursed the comunists. Groaning the minister said "please don't curse them. Keep silent i wish to pray for them".

Richard Warmbrand

Why?

WHY?
I can't move, i can't think i can't feel, i don't want help, I want to move, I want to think, i want to feel, i want to get help, I need to move, i need to think, i need to feel, i need to want help, But i can't, why you ask, well because, I am overworked, tired, and can't get time alone, so i feel crushed, and worthless, no body's listening, so why do i talk, nobody hears me so why be in the presence of others, so please tell me, why would i want to move, why would i want to think, why would i want to feel, why would i want to get help from anyone, anyone at all, why would i want any of these things, and why do i want to live? Because throw all the heard time's god is there, when i cry, when I'm happy, when I'm sad, or when in angry, he will always be there for me, and for you, don't worry about what you do, or what you've done, he will forgive everything... i stay because he put me here for a reason.. what that reason is i might not know yet but I'll find out someday and then i will have a purpose and, i will want to move, i will want to think, i will want to feel, i will want help from others...

By,

Charlene M. Stoks